NICK
GARROW-FISHER

It isn't easy to admit it—but I've spent much of my life desperately avoiding my true nature, fighting life. I lived with the belief that I didn’t belong—a story born in childhood that created needless struggle.
This resistance to life at times left me quietly exhausted. Although I created a life of relative comfort and freedom - the pain of knowing what I'm here for and not feeling able to embody it left me deeply unsatisfied. 

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We all have childhood conditioning and wounds - and although mine weren’t dramatic by many standards (CPTSD and ADHD are two labels that help with sense-making and strategies, while not being overly identified with) they wove an intricate framework of self-rejection. This subtle, insidious belief—that I was simply unacceptable—made it harder to see, much less address. It shaped everything I did - and all interactions. It still affects me in many ways, though i now have strategies that help.

 

There are multiple points in my life where I chose to transform into something that seemed impossible at the time. 

These metamorphoses came from a deep knowing of what I'm here for and the universe calling me forward into the next stage of that evolution. And these steps were not taken alone.

When these moments come - they cannot be ignored. 
 

It's a journey of a lifetime - but since 2018, my full-time occupation has been self-healing.

I've committed myself to the practice of deep listening, following intuitive guidance to the teachers and places that support both my personal and our collective liberation.

It hasn’t been easy - but I made an unshakable agreement with the universe: I will never ignore its call. 

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This path became one of devotion:
 

• Committing to rewriting the narrative that had kept me on the side-lines of life.

• Continuously co-creating a reality of freedom and possibility. Dissolving shame and reminding myself that I belong in this world. Offering self compassion when this seemed impossible.

• Exploring magic, mystery, pleasure, energy, and freedom through movement, breath, sound and touch. Exploring all the pathways to being a full spectrum human. Yes!

• Choosing to live this short life as an opportunity to be in service to humanity where I can.

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At my core, I’ve always known my purpose is to teach. In moments of deep meditation I would receive the clearest signs - literally bold text appearing out of the darkness that simply said "TEACH". Signs don't get much clearer! Yet still I avoided it for years. Perhaps you can relate.

Even if you're not actively "living" your dharma - it will come out of you anyway in a somewhat less satisfying ways. As i like to say.... you are inevitable. Understanding this, has made it easier to step into the role in a more concrete way these days.
 

Love is what runs through all aspects of life. A word that I once upon a time was more hesitant to use - it can evoke different reactions in people - but its power can't be denied.

It's a universal energy—fierce yet nourishing. Working tirelessly in service of the highest good for humanity. Love is embracing the truth, even when it feels impossible.

I’ve learned that although accepting our true nature is deeply confronting - it's a path we must sooner or later embrace.

Without it, the juice of life, true satisfaction remains out of reach.
 

I am here to support and guide others along this journey of discovery.

To serve,  helping you to see and embrace your own unique essence.

I am here to support our collective liberation, humbly doing my part toward a more open-hearted and authentic human... and remembering to have some fun along the way.​